fairly close to home…o.O
The name of Kathleen has created a congenial nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world. Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern, and where you would not have to make major decisions. You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people. Procrastination is a weakness of your nature, causing an inability always to complete your plans or to concentrate for long. You need to see a concept presented completely in detail before you can understand it, and if you cannot understand it, you come to your own conclusion and often fail to listen to and reason out another’s point of view. You resist being forced into change and could become almost impervious to new ideas. You desire refinement, understanding, and appreciation, yet sometimes your outward attitude does not reveal your innermost feelings, and thus you have never felt truly understood. Your name has given you a desire for heavy, rich foods, which cause sluggish digestion. You could suffer with constipation, stomach, or intestinal disorders, or disturbances in the fluid functions of the body.

last half is REALLY CLOSE TO HOME!!! o.O
Your name of Katie has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and you desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order or ask permission. You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help you are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people. You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain. You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and understanding. Although you are honest and fair, a directness in speech is a source of much consternation to you, and you often regret what you say. You also have a tendency to worry. It causes you to be too serious, and interferes with happiness and relaxation that comes with naturalness of expression. Health weaknesses centre in the head appearing as headaches, head colds, and eye, teeth, ear, or sinus problems.

rainbows, thunderstorms, kittys, puppies, john, jen, video games, pac man, S-BAM, gardens, black roses, climbing rocks, camping, stars, sky, dragons, unicorns, anime, scifi, trucks, monster trucks, black, red, white, archery, hide-n-seek, man hunt, spicy nacho doritos, hot chicken wings, cookies, peanut butter, strawberry jam, wheat bread, gamer magazines, coloring, french fries, tatter tots, fire, spring, snakes, lizards, hentai, chaser x-mas lights, comic books, pink-peek-a-boo, pineapples, forest, pockey, chopsticks, orange juice, halloween, turkey, chicken, instant mashed potatoes, corn, reading, sleeping, cuddling, quilts, painting, pop, fortune cookies, glow-in-the-dark, stickers, ranch dressing, carrots, puzzles, birds, rain, warm baths, swimming, hot tubs, rollercoasters, swings, plantes, gum, socks, pins, sewing, fanfics, photography, sunsets, silver, x-mas trees, stockings, gift wrap, ice skating, bikes, roller blading, water slides, ice cream, computers, internet, FFH, arkanoid, roadrunner, lady bugs, butterflies, fruit loops, swearing, baby toys, soccar, vollyball, kickball, candy canes, writing, walking, music, singing, notebooks, fall, candy corn, zoos, aquariums, fish, sharks, nail polish, foreign languages, penguins, crows, snapple fire, snapple pink lemonade, popkorn, slippers, stuffed animals, UFO catcher plushies, delta winged kites, disk golf, beaches, beads, and clothes.

i was trying to chear myself up today…i thought making a list of stuff i liked would help…it just made me think a LOT
thats odviously not complete, that would be impossible

i hurt too much. *fighting the tears that just keep on coming* i dont like it when mom yells at me. shes extremely pissed at me for last night…so much that she has even threatend to take away my net access…(how i dont know). i am right now trying to avoid her…i did my fucking dishes when she wasnt in the house.

i am just sick of people in my own family not telling me whats going on. apparently mom never wanted carrie to have a time limit on the computer…but well never told me…thus resulting in carrie using moms account, and me getting angry…WELL THANKS FOR FUCKING TELLING ME!!!!

i have missed a ton of family stuff over the past year or so, because no body tells me whats going on…until the day before. too late for me to get off from work. it hurt alot when they went trailer camping and carrie got to drive an ATV…mom knows i LOVE that kind of stuff…and i missed Ravens graduation, because no one told me…

i just hurt. mom said that she had faith in me when i was carries age…yeah…and she showed it when??? i feel like i am on a fucking leash…working my ass off…just to pay my bills…i gave up on buying stuff for my self…so i can do one selfish thing as to go see John. but as of late, everyone seems to be taking their problems out on me.

i was in such a good mood…got to have fun at work…and such…took a beautiful picture of the flag with the black sky as a background. i even broke my vow and bought AnimericaExtra…i bought anime(*i feel ashamed* and the sad thing is i really do, i broke a promise…)

*sighs* well i am seriously debaiting just running away…but i cant…i want to move out…but i cant…i just want out…as i told jen…i dont want to be here anymore, at least not on this plane of existance.

i work my ass off so i can give up my money to my mom…gee i feel special…and i cant talk to her, with out her being upset at me…cause i know they need that money…